so it continues:(

so i called his house at 5 PM, and manang said that he's sleeping. i really cried already as we were(manang) speaking. i really need someone to talk to and just tell everything. just someone who will be there, at least. i tried to call aney, my best friend, but i forgot that she has summer class. and i had this agonizing long talk with her mom about summer classes and why i don't have one without her noticing that my heart is ready to burst with tears. i remember friendship and kakang, but they don't have landlines and they don't have smart numbers. so my next option was F. i called her and really really cried my heart out. she told me to ignore him or something(i wasn't really listening at this point for i was like, close to blacking out(no hyperbole or anything)). then i remembered that she has a new boyfriend, ivan(long story). it was really hard to make myself happy for her even for just about 2 minutes or so. i was really really sad.

then i called again just this 7:30. his mom answered and she told me that she's still sleeping and asked me if it's important so she can wake him up. i said it is and she woke him up. the moment i heard his voice i knew i'm gonna cry na. and i did. he seem so cold. it's so not him. i asked him if he's sick or something or if he has a problem, or has no time. just any excuse. I'd be ready to accept it even if its the dumbest excuse there is. but i believe he just said that he'll call me. that's it. it was like, nothing happen. what the fuck is that about? i mean, you didn't call me for the whole day and now you'll act like we just talked 5 minutes ago?? if my mom isn't sleeping by my side id be cursing him to hell. and besides, i was crying like a drama queen already, so it was a lil hard for me to speak. all i can say was "bakit?" for like 7 times. it was really shitty. i mean, i was in a relationship before but this never happened to me. so it was really hard. so now im still waiting for his call. i just hope he won't forget it.. really really hope.